everyone knows that the cornerstone of the mixtape community is a healthy dose of angst. and at the heart of any angst worth having is the crush.
i like to think of myself as a little bit of a crush expert. the sweaty palms, the flushed cheeks, the stuttering - i get it all. there's truly a twelve-year old teeny-bopper school girl inside me. and in high school i had the tiger beat posters on the wall to prove it.
more often than not, these crushes go nowhere. the bar-crush moves on to another job; the bus-crush stops taking that route; you stop seeing your everywhere guy everywhere. the moments on tv where two strangers bump into eachother at the super market and fall in love doesn't happen. believe me, i've tried.
the worst crush, though, is the straight crush. all gay guys know one of their straight guy friends who indulges them in a little flirtation. it's great as long as you remember that flirtation is all it is. even if the guy is looking to do a little experimentation, it's prolly best to steer clear and let him try it on someone else. you'll either be left hurt because he'll realize that he truly is straight, or he'll figure out he's gay and everyone knows that things never work out with new gays.
it also sucks when you start finding out more about your crush. gays in chicago are plentiful. but it's also a little game of six degrees of seperation. everyone pretty much knows everyone through someone else. so it can sometimes happen that your crush is friends with someone you don't like. and we all know how that can taint a crush.
i love crushes, though. the excitment that you'll see them. the butterflies they cause. the "is he flirting or not?" questions. i love it all. dating, however, is a different story. i hate dating. dating isn't fun and i usually turn into that crazy-eyed-why-didn't-you-call-me?!-person. i don't really even know why. i hate talking on the phone.
on another note, school starts in february.
i like to think of myself as a little bit of a crush expert. the sweaty palms, the flushed cheeks, the stuttering - i get it all. there's truly a twelve-year old teeny-bopper school girl inside me. and in high school i had the tiger beat posters on the wall to prove it.
more often than not, these crushes go nowhere. the bar-crush moves on to another job; the bus-crush stops taking that route; you stop seeing your everywhere guy everywhere. the moments on tv where two strangers bump into eachother at the super market and fall in love doesn't happen. believe me, i've tried.
the worst crush, though, is the straight crush. all gay guys know one of their straight guy friends who indulges them in a little flirtation. it's great as long as you remember that flirtation is all it is. even if the guy is looking to do a little experimentation, it's prolly best to steer clear and let him try it on someone else. you'll either be left hurt because he'll realize that he truly is straight, or he'll figure out he's gay and everyone knows that things never work out with new gays.
it also sucks when you start finding out more about your crush. gays in chicago are plentiful. but it's also a little game of six degrees of seperation. everyone pretty much knows everyone through someone else. so it can sometimes happen that your crush is friends with someone you don't like. and we all know how that can taint a crush.
i love crushes, though. the excitment that you'll see them. the butterflies they cause. the "is he flirting or not?" questions. i love it all. dating, however, is a different story. i hate dating. dating isn't fun and i usually turn into that crazy-eyed-why-didn't-you-call-me?!-person. i don't really even know why. i hate talking on the phone.
on another note, school starts in february.
little bits:01. matt duke - sex and reruns
02. the blue van - silly boy
03. colbie caillet - realize
04. matt wertz - everything's right
05. joshua radin f. ingrid michaelson - sky
06. lykke li - little bit
07. lenka - don't let me fall
08. meiko - boys with girlfriends
09. snow patrol - crack the shutters
10. james morrison - nothing ever hurt like you
11. kings of leon - sex on fire
12. love and rockets - no new tale to tell
13. lykke li - i'm good, i'm gone
14. sia - soon we'll be found
15. the weepies - all good things
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2 comments:
Your post really just got to me. There is a fine line between a healthy crush and a super awkward unrequited love situation. Unfortunately, my latest situation has turned unrequited love. It's depressing and I just can't quit him. Your mixtape rocks though.
i wish you were straight and we could date... either way we will be bff for life. xoxo.
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